What happens when you wake up one day and you realize you have no connection with your Self? You realize you have never seen your Self, acknowledged your Self or honored your Self. Where on god’s green earth do you begin?
My experience is you begin with listening, and you begin by seeing. Seeing all the things you may have been running from all of your life so far, covering it up with dismissal, turning away, busying yourself with distractions. You look in the mirror, and you see something your mind does not like, but the voice inside your head says at least you have eyes to see. That is a part of turning away from those moments that arise within you. As you turn away, you amour your Self against them, chu-chink…big steel plate to hide behind. As those moments come and go, they solidify by tucking them away behind another piece of perceived steel. If not watching, the steel plate that was once the size of a dime, throughout your years, will take you over. It will appear as a physical hardening or a mental hardening that surrounds the inner light inside with so much strength that you may believe the light does not exist inside at all anymore.
It is there.
And, every access point is a personal discovery. There is no one solution for everyone. For those pieces of steel implemented throughout your life are unique to you. Steer clear of anything that offers to be the only solution. Each layer there is a there is a question, but rest assured there is also an answer. As you reach the next layer, another question arises, and another answer unfolds. It sounds like a mystery maybe even a hyperbole, but the mystery exists in the uncovering and once uncovered you will experience it was there all along it just couldn’t answer because you never asked.
(photo by Caleb Woods)