Taking A Closer Look At Monkey Mind

watching your personal energy

Energy extended outward, when intentionally watching, it surges inward and dances in front of me.

The amount of energy produced inside of me exceeds the amount needed to function.  It overwhelms me as it comes inside and slowly reduces.  I feel the production of energy is too great, and it is apparent that it takes more energy production to be external than is necessary to function internally.  It is as if the extraordinary amount of energy I feel desires to extend outwards to release itself.  Yet, it seems the desire to reach outwards, in actuality, generates more energy and therefore creates an antithetical loop; exchanging the desire to expel with the reaching out to expel which by its nature, produces more and adds to what was already too much.

The mind reacts to a need for shaking off, letting out, dispelling the excessive production.  This need is apparent when trying to bring the energy back in.  The body feels restless and responds with a nauseous sensation, a sense of being too plugged in, and receiving too much energy.  It is not the unwieldiness or the lack of self-control.  It is the production of too much energy driven by habitual ways of being external rather than internal.

Taking The Past Into The Present, Mindfully

Along the way, with each day and sometimes even each second I learn something new.  As I welcome the new year and reflect over the past years, there are a few “solids” that have unraveled in my life so far, and I want to share with you the culmination of that reflection.  I feel blessed to have been bestowed these gifts upon my ever questioning and wondering “why?” nature.

Pay Attention, A Practice

I analyze.  I am continually finding myself analyzing situations and then strategizing how to best respond.  At least this is what I have called it for most of my life.  This obsessive analyzing has served me in many positive ways:

  • It has made me a super problem solver.
  • I am a tinkerer driven by a mad curiosity which results in discovered efficiencies both in my career and in my personal life.
  • The constant questioning and problem-solving have led me to learn – and I mean a lot about a lot of different things.

However, if I do not pay attention that same analyzing quality also can destroy my happiness by creating confusion and clouding clarity.

A New Year Word

Welcome to 2018!

I have been off in hibernation over the holidays – it is what I do every year.  I visit my family at the beginning of December, my hubby heads off to his family’s house, and I stay at the casa with Travis (the cat) and hibernate.

It is one of my favorite things to do each year.  There is a space that opens inside of me when I am left to my own devices, when I can make my own schedule, and when there is no one, but Travis of course, to listen to me regurgitate my thoughts audibly.

For the past 20 or so years, I have practiced my end of the year ritual.  It is not even about the new year itself but rather the energy that permeates everything and everyone towards the end of the year that resonates with me.  Everyone seems to be in the same mindset; there is more optimism everywhere I look, and I ride the tide and wrap myself in the energy that feels like wrapping up and beginning anew.

How Are Your Senses Shaping Your Perception Of Reality?

I have an overactive right side, physically, which has contributed to the thoracic outlet syndrome the medical profession diagnosed years ago.  Everything from my right eye to my right toes works harder than the left side of my body (except the gluteus minimus).  If you look closely at my physical structure, in person, you can see even my right cervical spine is pushing to the left.  Take a look at the picture next to this post, and you can see my right side pushing towards my left.

Now, some of this stands to reason since I am right handed.  So, it is safe to assume I would dominate with my right side somewhat.  However, the amount of structural and muscular movement is beyond regular right-hand dominance.

Meditation, No Slick Guarantees Here

Yoga, meditation, and mindfulness, regardless of all the slick guarantees, do not make unwanted things go away.  These practices do not hold promises of unending bliss.  Instead, they create a space to see yourself as you are and open your heart to yourself with acceptance and kindness.  They expose your habits and present them before you and you can either buy-in or let go.  It is through these practices you realize whatever occurs at this moment is neither the beginning nor the end.  Thoughts, emotions, and feelings come and go, and all that is ever here is the basic nowness that is unfolding in front of you.

Oops, now that has gone but here is another, and another, and another and another…

My Theory of Everything

This post was written by my dear friend, Carol Orsborn

I think of myself as a seeker and for years I experienced myself as a human being utilizing spiritual practice to alleviate the drama of life. But one of the great gifts of age is that perceptions—even cherished ones– can seemingly change in a flash, like the final drop of water finally overflowing a dam. All the life experience, all the trial and error, all the observation and contemplation finally amounts to something. And so it is that my experience of not only myself but the world shifted dramatically somewhere along the way and I suddenly have a new theory of everything.

The Parallels Of Practice Between Yoga And Life

Parallels Between Yoga and Life

How to be in a yoga pose?

How to be in life?

Doing.  Being. Trusting.  Faith.  Balance.  Center.  This is my practice.

Looking at life and how I participate with it, I see, with clarity, a parallel between the practice of yoga and the practice that continues to evolve within my life itself.

In yoga is someone else wrong for doing a pose differently?  Maybe their body is different.  Perhaps their experience is different.  It is not about them, but instead, it is about what works for me.  In life, we compare ourselves to others.  It seems we think we need to be more like someone else as we hold our self to a standard we believe we know.  Yet, in yoga, I clearly see I do not compare.  I do not look at someone who can stand on their head for an hour and insist that I need to jump in immediately and stand on my head for an hour.  I do not look outside in a yoga class and strive to be like others.  In yoga, I come back inside and do what I can, be what I am, trust in myself, have faith and find my balance.    In yoga class the students respect the teacher, we listen, we observe, and then we approach the pose and enter it as our Self for our Self.  We do not enter the pose to show or become someone else.

Why You Can Meditate

When I meditate I focus on my out-breath.  When I first begin my meditation practice, I pay attention to the qualities of the out-breath, the color, the texture, etc….

After getting settled, usually about 5 minutes, I start to pay attention more to the space around the out-breath rather than the qualities of the breath itself.  As my mind starts thinking, which it always does, I imagine popping the thought bubble with a feather and say to myself, “thinking.”

When I first began meditating several years ago, I would label things within my meditation as they happened. This labeling was identified by the sense perception I was experiencing. When I would hear a car go by and my attention was drawn to it, I would silently say to myself “hearing.”  When I noticed I was lost in thought, I would silently say to myself “thinking” and then bring myself back to watching the out-breath.